I have been feeling very lonely lately.  I know it's my own fault.  I just don't know how to reach out.  It's funny, because one minute I can be outgoing and comfortable in a crowd while in the next minute I am subdued and quiet.  What I am really lonely for is the closeness of family.  I have this ache in my heart.  It is hard to be so far away from everyone that I love.  I miss being an auntie, a sister, a daughter.  I wish that I would have spent every moment that I could with everyone in my family.  I hope they know how much they really mean to me.  I need to be better about sending out letters and calling.

 

I called my grandparents the other evening.  We had a great conversation and they both sounded like they were doing ok.  It has been very difficult for both of them these past few years.  It has been extremely hard on them these past few months.  They are such special people and they mean the world to me.  I wish that I were well.  I would be able to do more for the people who have been so good go me all of my life...

 

Lunch is ready and I should go.  I just needed to get my feelings out so I can deal with them better.  I will write more when I can...

 

Mikki, you and your family are in my prayers.  I love you.

 

Robert and Terry, you and your family are also in my prayers.  God be with you as you make difficult decisions in the following weeks...